WheN The ChiLdreN cRY

what can i say? ...time is running, but i'm only crawling...can i make a difference?....what is it? the purpose that i am being here? ....these questions always running in my head...

26 years....i only stuck....not even dare to dream...

so what i am doing here?...

so sad...

so lonely...

so empty...

can i help myself?...

don't know...

just to tired even to help myself...

all i see is black...

ImMorTal

i'm mortal...not hoping to be immortal..but immortal is ok...if i stay in heaven :P

so many things happen in life...that makes my heart broken...but that's the reason that i'm not a machine or a monster...am i right ??? ^^

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

S.*.*.K

uda lama ga ngepost neh....berapa bulan ya...hmmm...

just wanna share..ada lagu bagus dr five for fighting - the riddle u and i

There was a man back in '95
Whose heart ran out of summers
But before he died, I asked him

Wait, what's the sense in life
Come over me, Come over me

He said,

"Son why you got to sing that tune
Catch a Dylan song or some eclipse of the moon
Let an angel swing and make you swoon
Then you will see... You will see."

Then he said,

"Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I..."

Picked up my kid from school today
Did you learn anything cause in the world today
You can't live in a castle far away
Now talk to me, come talk to me

He said,

"Dad I'm big but we're smaller than small
In the scheme of things, well we're nothing at all
Still every mother's child sings a lonely song
So play with me, come play with me"

And Hey Dad
Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

I said,

"Son for all I've told you
When you get right down to the
Reason for the world...
Who am I?"

There are secrets that we still have left to find
There have been mysteries from the beginning of time
There are answers we're not wise enough to see

He said... You looking for a clue I Love You free...

The batter swings and the summer flies
As I look into my angel's eyes
A song plays on while the moon is hiding over me
Something comes over me

I guess we're big and I guess we're small
If you think about it man you know we got it all
Cause we're all we got on this bouncing ball
And I love you free
I love you freely

Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

RefLecTion

Arena (known to self and others) caring, cheerful, sentimental, sympathetic	Blind Spot (known only to others) accepting, adaptable, bold, brave, clever, complex, energetic, friendly, giving, happy, helpful, independent, intelligent, kind, knowledgeable, loving, mature, nervous, proud, responsive, sensible, spontaneous, trustworthy, warm, witty
Façade (known only to self) introverted	Unknown (known to nobody) able, calm, confident, dependable, dignified, extroverted, idealistic, ingenious, logical, modest, observant, organised, patient, powerful, quiet, reflective, relaxed, religious, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, shy, silly, tense, wise

All Percentages

able (0%) accepting (9%) adaptable (18%) bold (9%) brave (18%) calm (0%) caring (18%) cheerful (45%) clever (18%) complex (9%) confident (0%) dependable (0%) dignified (0%) energetic (18%) extroverted (0%) friendly (36%) giving (9%) happy (18%) helpful (9%) idealistic (0%) independent (9%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (18%) introverted (0%) kind (18%) knowledgeable (9%) logical (0%) loving (45%) mature (18%) modest (0%) nervous (9%) observant (0%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (9%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (0%) religious (0%) responsive (9%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (18%) sentimental (45%) shy (0%) silly (0%) spontaneous (9%) sympathetic (18%) tense (0%) trustworthy (27%) warm (9%) wise (0%) witty (9%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 28.2.2006, using data from 11 respondents.
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t 'N r

James Blunt - Tears And Rain

How I wish I could surrender my soul
Shed the clothes that become my skin
See the liar that burns within my needing
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold
How I wish I had screamed out loud
Instead I've found no meaning

I guess it's time I run far, far away, find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same, it just keeps me from trouble
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble
It's more than just words, it's just tears and rain

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind
Hold memory close at hand
Help me understand the years
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell
How I wish I would save my soul
I'm so cold from fear

I guess it's time I run far, far away, find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same,it just keeps me from trouble
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble
Far, far away, find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same, it just keeps me from trouble
It's more than just words, it's just tears and rain

No TiTLe

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perjumpaan kita...

angin yg berhembus...
tarian pohon-pohon yang lemah gemulai...
bersatu dalam segenap gerakan yang anggun...
bukit yang landai...
hijau segar merekahnya rumput...
menyinari pandanganku...

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segenap pandanganku...
segenap arah langkahku...
adalah arah menuju kemana kandaku berada...

tetapi sayangku...
akankah kegelisahan akan terus memburu...
akankah kerinduan memecahkan kesunyian...

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SoMeThinG 2 ReMemBer

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